Such a big theme to put but I must say today while laying down on my bed. As the night slips away, I can’t help but wonder. So many things we always have plans, goal and aspiration for but we never once work towards it. The hardwork just seems to always be too much or too scary. If you only had a tiny chance to be a politician would you do it? If you had a tiny chance to become a singer would u do it? A shot at fame a shot for success. Come to think of it , many people did talk about taking the shot. I hope one day I can muster the courage, confidence and boldness in me to change to overcome and to one day inspire others. Those who don’t take the shot just slips away to become another guy who has an 8-5 job. Don’t be that one. Take the shot make it count. Cheers to much more adventures ahead friends.

Just some early thoughts. Is 8.18am and I was thinking about life. Life is such a fragile thing. But yet sometimes we have to make so many personal level sacrifices for perhaps a societal level benefit. If one day we were at the cross roads of choosing our love one or a 100 others I wonder what’s my choice. Is really not easy braving on despite the things that we go through daily. So many ‘zombies’ that does not seem to have any drive in them to do anything. They are simply going through the motion. Why still do it then? Cause they must to survive. Is so sad that we have progressed so far as a nation and as a civilisation but yet all we are doing is purely for survivability. Will there be a there where we can finally see people enjoying the high life? Where we can influence the people and everyone to be lift up together and no one left behind? The communist idea isn’t so bad after all if everyone participated in it. Everyone wants a voice and wants a vote to change something but everyone only cares about themselves. If only we can have a responsible leader that views the world as a whole, irregardless of personal or individual ambitions. I wonder if such a day will ever come to pass.

Today my parents quarrelled and hence I went for a walk. I think we humans are really too quick to judge. Whenever we hear some family fighting stories, like father being violent we tend to jump to the conclusion of that particular family being dysfunctional. But the fact of the matter is this, we will never know. We just judge base on what we ONLY know. That’s the only fact we got and we jump straight to the point. That could somewhat be harmful and downright self destructive to the individual.

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As walking today I chance upon this! It really reminded me something. There’s 2 way of viewing this. 1. We are all flawed. No matter how special we think we are if we just a minute to stop look and reflect, deep down we are all imperfect and flawed. What makes us difference is literally what on the outside but inside, is always the same. 2. The same greatness that others elude is the some kind of greatness we are capable of. What Steve jobs, Nelson Mandela, Obama and Lee Hsien Loong has achieve, we are also able to. A lot of times is not about how smart or how capable you are but rather how badly you want it. The heart holds the key to all the dreams that you could ever have. If you can put ur heart in it, your dreams are just waiting to be unlock.

‘You miss a 100% of the shots you don’t take’ today make a decision to take your shot. Don’t be afraid of that condemnation or failure, shoot it and be proud of it. Mummy always say try to have as little regret as possible and daddy always say, think before you act. Be the best you today!

Today was a really chill day. My head has been very occupied with money making and money generating ideas that it actually caused me to constantly think of ways in making money. I really need someone to talk to about all this ideas and thoughts. I also realise a tendency of shooting ideas down myself. I just think is great but end up rejecting the idea constantly with reasons or perhaps excuses.

Really love my family but is funny that I can’t put it to words. Not literally pen it down but rather expressing my gratitude and love to them through words and is funny how a simple I love you could be so hard to let out of my chest. To guys out there facing the same problem u are not alone. I’m still waiting for the day for me to be able to step out of my comfort zone and be more expressive about it. Major throwback to when my daddy gave me a hug at the hospital. Touch a strong spot in me.

How much money is a lot? The truth is , is subjective. I always believed that no amount of money can ever satisfy you and no amount is ever too big for anyone. Money is literally an idea that is conceptualised by someone to replace butter trading. The fact that the first time money was used baffled me. How the trader actually was able to convince the person into making that trade possible.Literally a piece of paper for the goods.

Feelings real lazy recently as well, been sloppy with my body maintenance and my hair has been getting messier too. Really need to pick my shit up together and start rolling again. Really hope one day someone reads all this and hit me up so we could possibly chat. Nothing Beats meeting new people and exploring new grounds.

Seeing my great grandmother on her deathbed really pains my heart. She’s been through so much like the WW2 and growing up in that era where Singapore was struggling for survival. But I must say, what a privilege it is to live in today times. Indeed how times has progressed looking back. We use to be so Primative in our actions and behaviour but now we are so cultured and civilised. So advanced that maybe we have lost that inner human touch within us all. My mum shared with me about us being lucky. Back in their times there were no bubble tea or electronic device for games. But this got me thinking, although there’s no games or electronic device, the human connection was so strong. The so called Kampung spirit. It wasn’t something forced out but rather it was something birthed out. Human to human interaction was so geniune and sincere. Now, is either money or for another purpose.

Really want to meet more people and explore what the world has to offer. To bounce off money making ideas and expose myself to do even greater things than before. I wish for the opportunity and the doors to be open. Covid has really taken a toll on everyone’s life and how we are adjusting to it. Fear is everywhere but measures are also taken. I’m lucky Singapore has great management and foresight that resulted in the virus being much more merciful to us than other countries. But everyone only sees the positive things, the facade of our political system is being portrayed. We ain’t a democratic nation. We are just sly with our words and twist and turn the rules so that we fit the criteria. We use political tools and legal ways to surpress the other parties. But at the end of the day, I like this way. Is like 2 business competing isn’t it? The one with larger economic of scale tends to be able to out muscle the smaller one. All is fair and square.

Hope to be able to keep this habit of writing to reflect and entertain myself. I honestly don’t know how this app works. Just feel that is a great platform to be anonymous but yet share my feeling openly and genuinely for whomever to see or read. Guess there’s a sense of satisfaction behind it after all. Till next time.

Decided to start a wordpress for self reflecting and as a way to improve my own English.

Everyone seems to have a value over their head. Many claims money isn’t what they are after but yet most can be brought with a price.

However I do have friends that are Christians that are not money oriented but yet at some point in life seems to reveal signs of regrets about their decision to not pursue career promotions and wealth. I think people that are able to devote solely and whole heartedly to a cause that is not profitable extremely admirable.

Personally, I became more finance oriented after reading Robert Kiyosaki’s rich dad poor dad. But yet at the same time, wealth doesn’t seem to ever be sufficient…. what are we working for? What are we chasing after? Big bucks but what’s the purpose of it? Everyone has a motivation. Be it for family, lifestyle or even something as basic as to flaunt to our friends.

People will always want 100% of your commitment and time. If you don’t do what you want to do, you will spend time living others dream and helping others achieve what you could possibly achieve.

On a side note, my boss is such an amazing speaker. I honestly though I could speak pretty darn well but yet, there’s always some one better. 一山比一山高, this Chinese saying is indeed true. How do I be the best at what I do…. is usually not the best that stands out but the one who know how to SHOW that they are the best. Maybe that’s why the world is a stage and we are just it’s player.

Well great first day of reflecting. To many more enlightenment and to a better me! Cheers people.

Thanks for joining me!

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton